08.31.07
Here comes the Fall
You could hear it this week; the slow beat of the marching band slowly leading in the march of fall. The summer and it’s hazy nights have begun to slip away and I wonder how they can possibly be leaving. Soon the air will be crisp and clean and cool and the leaves will change until the hillsides are aflame with color.
I’m not ready for fall to come again. I have not yet summoned the necessary level of excitement that many people seem to feel with the beginning of a new year. Typically the new year is started with fresh enthusiasm. This year will be different, exciting, …better. But at this year I cannot bring myself to believe this. Instead I feel that this year will be as every year has been before. Some days will be bad, some will be good. Some things will get done and much will be more difficult than I anticipated. And yet somehow this makes me content. I am not anxious to meet new people or start something new. I am just content to keep continuing worrying about changes as they come but expecting nothing from them.
It would be easier to be excited though. It’s hard to not seem indifferent in a bad way when everyone else around you seems excited and in anticipation of the beginning of the year.